The heading for this blog is the title of a book by Primo Levi, published in 1982. An Auschwitz survivor, he is probably best known for The Periodic Table (1975) and for his account of the time he endured in Auschwitz published in 1947 titled 'If this is a Man'.
I have been aware of him for many years now. I have a soft spot for inspirational quotes and 'If now now, when?" comes to me at times when I find myself hesitating, procrastinating or feeling stuck. I find it helpful as a way to provoke movement, make a change etc. These sayings are useful as a self-help strategy - but even more useful is to understand the root of the procrastination or 'stuckness'.
As a Transactional Analyst, I know there are several concepts to help me help myself, or a trainee or supervisee.
Drivers/Working Styles: those with Be Perfect put off doing something until they think they can do it perfectly. By which time, the opportunity might be missed or long gone. Try Hards continue to try hard, because committing to action means they will not be 'trying hard' anymore. Please People worry that the action they are thinking about taking might not please people .... and that is a problem for them. Be Strongs do not have problems - they think - they get on with the task but are baffled by people and the fuss they make and do not always understand what others might need from them. Hurry Ups do not stay in the moment long enough to really know what matters to them - they busy themselves with tasks and in that process ignore the quiet voice inside saying "pay attention, this situation is important for you".
Rackets - a closed loop intrapsychic system where we keep ourselves stuck in a thought prison of our own making.
Contaminations - faulty beliefs about ourselves, others or the world in general which affect our behaviour ("They will not promote me, there is no point in going for that promotion").
Life Positions - I am not good enough to make that change, seize that opportunity, make that decision ...... What if you knew you were good enough.....?
Injunctions - received as an infant from the Child ego state of your Mum and/or Dad: don't be important, don't succeed etc. Injunctions as early conditioning lurk away beneath the surface and colour our decisions, make us miss opportunities.
Awareness is the key which helps us unlock energy for action, helps us to be free of harmful aspects of our script and helps us to recognise our personal power.
I finish with another favourite quote, this time a Chinese proverb -
"The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago. The second best time is now"
What are you waiting for?
Unlike other lockdowns, during this one we have made the decision to continue to look after our 4 year old granddaughter one day a week. Last week, she taught me a valuable lesson.
Life is such a challenge at the moment. The deaths from Covid rising to terrifying levels, the economy crashing, thousands of people made unemployed. New variants of the virus and long-Covid to add into the mix. And the fact that it is January, and the weather is grey and cold.
I have strategies to help me at times when I am feeling stressed or low, and I am lucky enough to have plenty of interesting projects to keep my mind active and engaged and I also get therapeutic satisfaction from knitting and crochet. Even so, the current strictures of lockdown can bring about the odd day of low mood.
After our granddaughter's visit last week, I began to realise that I had been doing too much 'Adulting'. Too much of the Parent and Adult ego states, and not nearly enough of letting my Child out to play!
In an email exchange with a friend, I described our day with Evie and I wrote "We had a great day with Evie yesterday, and were completely shattered by 6 pm. Drawing, hide and seek in the house, out for a walk following "dinosaur footsteps" and running away from monsters whilst being a tiger kept us on our toes all day long. When all is said and done, being reminded of what is important in this world is the tonic that will get me through this worrying time."
While the intent of my words was in response to my friend and I hoped to give some support, from her reply to me I realised that I had been neglecting my Child ego state. (This example also speaks to the point that while offering strokes to others, we benefit ourselves too!). And I am probably not alone in this.
In no way do I mean to minimise the incredible pressure many of us are under at the moment. Home-schooling three or more children while doing your own work from home and running a house-hold requires positive Parent discipline and Adult problem-solving in quantity. So does front-line work in hospitals and care homes. Easy to neglect the needs of your Child ego state. But I am suggesting that some time be reserved for the care-givers to care for themselves, to recognise what they need to do in order to be able to "fire on all cylinders".
So whether it is dancing, candle-lit bathing, painting or indeed dinosaur footstep following, my challenge to you today is to find 30 minutes to yourself, for this and every day following.
And tomorrow, I go back to being a tiger again ..........
This week I ran an online workshop on Power Dynamics as part of the TA Tribe Foundation programme.
We focussed mainly on ego states and transactions - how we invite others to take personal power from us, or how we might take it from others. We explored symbiosis - how we might get into unhealthy relationships where neither party are using their full set of ego state resources. We could have looked more closely at psychological contracting - understanding we have a right (power!) to ask for what we want. And we could have also looked at Rackets (loops of self-limiting beliefs). We only had six hours! And what we did cover facilitated interesting discussions and sharing of learning and experience.
We briefly talked about discounting - when we leave people out of a conversation, event, project etc we use our power in a negative way. The opposite - accounting - is much more powerful! Including, encouraging, supporting people to contribute.
We also briefly talked about strokes and stroking patterns - how we do not 'hear' some strokes (a stroke is a unit of recognition - so a thank you, being listened to, appreciated). Filtering out strokes is a way of preventing ourselves from being potent - ie, powerful!
Permissions are powerful. The permissions we give to others can have a profound affect. I was given a 'bullseye' permission by Jean Illsley-Clarke (a much respected human being and TA trainer and author) when I first met her in 2004 that I treasure and have never forgotten. Do not underestimate the power of permissions!
What I mean here, is a supportive, verbalised (but not always) recognition of our beings and our abilities. A manager actively listening to a team member could be seen as that manager giving permission to think. Encouraging someone to contribute to a team meeting may be a permission to belong etc.
In this blog, I want to concentrate on the permissions we might give to ourselves. This is a self-supporting way of increasing our personal power, and a very positive way of accounting for our personal resources.
We all know that this year has been tough for many people. We know that Christmas is a busy and sometimes stressful time of year at the best of times. And these are not the best of times. So, I am offering you a chance to give yourself some permissions:
I have been preparing for the next Tribe and TAPs workshops lately and I am curious about the connections between them - Power Dynamics, Recognition, Relationship and Resilience, Group Dynamics and Working with Change. I have been exploring speech patterns, interpersonal dynamics, unconscious processes and states of mind. I have re-connected with Ware's work on Contact Doors - how as practitioners if we listen carefully we can hear clues in the client's speech patterns and choice of words and we can respond in ways which are helpful, and avoid the 'trap' door - which is not helpful at all.
As I write this in the middle of October, there is a lot going on in the world ..... which is putting it mildly. There is such uncertainty, confusion and downright scare that we need now more than ever to be able to dive into our resources to support ourselves to get through it.
We need people in our lives who will listen to us as we share our fears and concerns. Those of us who are 'helping professionals' - teachers, coaches, managers, consultants, health professionals etc - also need to apply active listening skills in order to be able to judge when a client (or a friend) is getting close to a crisis of a personal nature so that we can be of most support. And sometimes it is more appropriate to challenge, to encourage our client to distinguish between reality and fantasy, or to help them remember their skill set, their personal attributes. To help them get back on track. Listening is a very powerful skill! Without careful listening we miss what is being said 'in plain sight' (to mix my metaphors .... or something).
If we recognise the speech patterns of let's say a person with a Please People Driver, with practice we can 'meet them where they are' (feelings), and then if appropriate encourage them to stretch into a target place (thinking) and may be the work will be accomplished here. Or perhaps it can be taken further, Ware calls it the trap door (for those with Please People that would be 'behaviour' - if the practitioner goes straight to this the client is likely to shut down. However, if you match (feelings) move (to thinking) and then get to where the work needs to be done (behaviour) then that 'trap' door becomes the 'developmental door' - a place to expand into and where the client needs to focus.
Knowing what to listen out for, identifying the driver speech patterns and having a mechanism for progress enhances our ability to encourage personal growth.
And fundamental to that skill is that of listening - a vastly underrated and overlooked interpersonal gift.
Four or five years ago I discovered the Zoom platform, and before that, Skype had revolutionised the way I was working. I had been conducting supervision and coaching online with Skype since 2008, but Zoom gave me the flexibility I was looking for when running online workshops.
I ran a series of workshops for a Polish group I was running at the time. It was a little tricky to setting into the dynamics of the process of being online with a group, working through a translator and settling my nerves around the technology, but it worked fine.
IN 2016 Iaunched TA Tribe. My intention is to make TA training and supervision accessible to all who want it for their professional and personal development. One of the great joys of my TA journey has been the opportunity to visit a range of countries whether that be to run programmes or workshops at conferences. I have trained in cultures as diverse at that found in St Petersburg to that found in Nashville, USA. I recognise this as a privilege and also recognise that many are not able to travel as widely, be that for mobility, caring responsibilities or financial constraints.
These days of course, we are also painfully aware of climate change issues. Working online is people and planet-friendly!
And then along came Covid 19.
The obvious approach for me was to convert my TA training to an online offer. And it is interesting, as I am sure you have also noticed, that out of crisis comes creativity - which brings about change, and in many ways, change for the better. 2020 is a year of change for me and through 2021 I will consolidate that change.
The online Tribe programme for those new to TA or for those wishing to brush up on their theory is now available for 2020/21 and starts with the academic year in September.
Tribe Advanced Practitioners group (TAPs) also starts in September, and is a monthly, two-day workshop at Diploma level for those preparing for CTA or DTA Diploma qualifications.
I am looking forward to working with new people, forming a new group and welcome you to TA Tribe!